Housekeeping post: Nov. 25 update

So, hey again from Casey, one of Philip’s many friends, here at the pivot point between seasons. I hope you all had a Happy Fappiano and are ready to start hiding the eggs!

Again, for the time being, I’ll be posting updates about Philip’s work, and efforts to preserve it. If you haven’t visited here in a while, I’m sad to report that Philip left us in July 2022. I still miss him like hell, but I’m so glad I got to know him, and I’m so proud of what he accomplished.

I’m going to talk about this year’s Xmas Bash! first, because it’s time-sensitive.

Saturday, December 17!

7PM to Midnight Eastern Time!

The 2022 Xmas Bash!

(Artwork by the inimitable Adam Lore –

Like always, it’s going to be 5 hours of holiday TV specials (the bad ones), music videos, cartoons, old Christmas commercials, AMANDA, and a fundraiser for the Trevor Project!

Three of the shows are ones that I know Philip had in mind to show at some point. The other four are ones I have chosen as your holiday torture.

The fundraiser page is here:

And we’ll also post it throughout the evening of Dec. 17.

Thank you all for contributing to the Kickstarter campaign for DieDie Books and Philip’s book-length treatment of The Wolf Man. Which, if I understand correctly, was a horror film about radio DJ Wolfman Jack. If you didn’t get a chance to pledge during the campaign, I am told that copies will be available for sale. At this point, I know as much as you do about when you will have Philip’s book in your hands. I know even less about what other nasty things you usually have in your hands, and I’d like to keep it that way.

And thank you to those who came to the Bashtrospective, where a Bash time was had by all! I have received a few requests to make Philip’s hosting videos (themselves from the very first Xmas Bash! in 2013) available to watch somewhere. I wish I could say I’m working on that, and I wish I could say when I will be. But I think there is going to come a point–maybe when we move hosting over–that it will make sense to create a page or two that archive Philip’s non-blog works. There are just difficulties inherent in file sharing right now, and I’d rather do these things once, for everyone, for the foreseeable future, than piecemeal.

We are still waiting for the terribly slow gears at Apple and Google to turn and let us into any of Philip’s accounts, which will allow us to move hosting of Noiseless Chatter onto another account. We don’t know when the current hosting now expires, so if we don’t get it in time, commenter Aidan has backed up the whole site here:


More updates as they come.

Thanks again for being Philip’s friends and loving him.


Thank you all.

If you are reading this, it’s because I have lost my battle with my demons. It has been a very long battle. It was not a pleasant one. It was not a battle that was satisfying. It was a battle that I was doomed to lose at some point. I’ve said before that I need to win the fight against my demons every single day, but my demons only need to win it once.

They came very close a few times in the past. Eventually, I got worn down enough that they won. I’m sorry. If it’s any consolation, I tried. I tried very, very hard for a very, very long time.

I cannot thank all of you enough. For all of my misfortune to have had to deal with mental health problems and neurological issues for so long, I’ve always been exceptionally fortunate — beyond all reason or explanation — to have a better audience than I’ve ever deserved. I’ve also consistently had better friends than I ever deserved. In a lot of ways, I’ve been very lucky.

But I am so tired. I am so drained. I have fought every day of my life to keep my head above water. The water keeps rising. It rises more quickly now than it did before, and for years it has seemed as though it does not stop.

That is not an excuse. I have failed. That is the bottom line. I have failed. I wish all of you greater strength than I have had. I sincerely wish all of you the best.

I want to thank you. Thank you for reading. Thank you for caring. May you each find what you need.

I don’t know how long the site will stay up. I believe that it is paid for through the end of the year. If there is anything here that you would like to keep, take it. I wish I were able to leave it with you in better shape than it is.

Thank you again. Be stronger, be better, and above all please be good to yourselves.

Xmas Bash Dec. 18. Go!

Just a quick note to say that there will be an Xmas Bash this year, but I will not be hosting it. Friend of the website Casey Roberson is taking over as host, handling the programming, and probably doing other things that can’t be mentioned in polite company. (Friend of the website Adam Lore has provided the promotional artwork.)

The event benefits The Trevor Project and seems like it will consist of similar content to previous Bash events. I say “seems like” because I have no idea what you will or won’t see, so that will be a nice change of pace for me.

TV episodes, music, chat, nonsense, the whole nine yards.

You can register at this Facebook link, where more information will be posted as it becomes available. I hope you are all well and I hope to see you there. Thank you.